Change is in the air. The colors in the trees are changing and Zach and I are starting to get the details of our move to Lenexa, Kansas figured out. We recently went up to Kansas on his fall break to hunt out an apartment and we found one! We put down a deposit and everything. Top two aspects I’m stoked about is #1, the dishwasher and #2, the hookups for a washing machine and dryer (which we will most certainly purchase once he starts working). No more hang drying our clothes on every possible nook in the apartment or sending a load down to my sister (she has free laundry at her university and has so sweetly agreed to do our laundry every weekend. You rock Katie).
Today’s goal was to fill out job applications which I did! Four total and hopefully some more tonight.
With change in the future, you should know that I am person who has never enjoyed the feeling of change. Zach and I have moved three times since being married in December 2013. You would think I would be used to change by now! But it still makes me nervous and anxious. Moving to Lenexa will be a lot smoother because we have movers coming in and packing for us and moving it all but still, new schedules, new jobs (hopefully for me!), a new church, and the new environment is all change for me.
But this time around the more I realize myself dwelling on anxious thoughts about change, the more I am determined to find comfort in the Lord. I find myself reading/clinging to Ephesians a lot lately and reminding myself that I have been made new and that I have choice of whether or not I want to dwell on my anxious thoughts. I can choose to wallow in my anxiety or I can come alive in the peace that only He provides and know that He will provide all of our needs.
remember that you were at that time separated from Christ, alienated from the commonwealth of Israel and strangers to the covenants of promise having no hope and without God in the world. But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ. For he himself is our peace, who has made us both one and has broken down in his flesh the wall of hostility.
Many are the plans in the mind of the man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand
Remember this and stand firm, recall it to mind, you transgressors, remember the former things of old; for I am God, and there is no other; I am God and there is none like me, declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times thing not yet done, saying My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all my purpose, calling a bird of prey from the east, the man of my counsel from a far country. i have spoken, and I will bring it to pass; I have purposed and I will do it.
Not engaging in anxiety is something that is difficult for me. I have come to find that I can make the decision to wallow or not and lately, I have become fed up with myself for being stressed/anxious (it’s exhausting). It is natural for the human mind to resist the truth about God; but by mentally focusing on who God is and renewing the faith that I have in him daily helps me to take down that habit of wallowing in anxiety. It is not easy by no means. I think the way I’m writing this makes it sound like I have flipped a switch. But I think it may be that fact that this is hopefully our last move for a while and I am just kind of run down from all the anxiety and stress. The decision to refuse has been something that has formed over sometime now.
So that is that, I hope it all makes sense! If it does not, feel free to ask questions.
Lately I have been reading this book called Boundaries have learned a lot about myself already. The two books I’m reading next are 1000 Gifts and Because He Loves Me. I get into these reading moods and devour books for a certain amount of time then take a three-month or so break. Last night, I made this for dinner and we loved it. It was perfect for the chilled night that it was.
Till next time, take care 🙂